I've found with doing the TAST this year it's been a breakthrough for me to say to myself - this is not the proper one, this one is for practice. It released me from the feeling that everything I make has to be perfect enough to give away or display cos the ingredients are so expensive, and that it needs to be perfect first time. I've done far more unpicking than I've ever done before, but I think the quality of my stitching has actually improved cos I'm more laid back about it. I've also got more confident by copying not the details of people's work but the style. I suppose it's dealing with my English reserve. I've really enjoyed seeing the work of Luiz on Stitchin Fingers and have tried in my head to say : think like a Brazilian - and be bolder and brighter, think like an architect - and use a ruler! Mind you, my taste and preferences are still very English :-)
One of the things that has got me back into sewing is a little dream I've had since I've been sick. It's based on a memory of working in the Nursery. The littlies would be draped with a man's shirt put on backwards as an apron then would stand in front of an easel and paint. Just slop it on for the simple pleasure of seeing the colours and the shapes. No pressure to perform, to paint a something. Just learning to become familiar with the tools and enjoy the act of making. I think it has been part of my inner healing to want to express myself. And I want pretty things, niceness, colours, form. My old ways of expressing myself have become severely limited by my body's limitations. But I'm still me on the inside. Even more so if that makes any sense ! Like a child learns to talk by babbling, talking scribble, playing with sounds I can learn to express myself by playing with different ways of expression. What fun :-))